What's the point of me smiling everyday but still there's always torn inside my heart? I thought everything could make things better but it seems not. Problems keep on approaching me. It scares me whenever I had one. I'm afraid of losing people and more about it. Dealing and keeping promises is not as easy speaking out ABC from your mouth. Keeping promises shows that you love that person and you want to make things right for them. It's the matter of choice, you want to keep it or not. I'm so down that everyday I don't know what to do when the one I love breaking the promises that we had before. I don't know how to react. I don't want to get pissed or upset but it breaks my heart so badly that I feel like crying so badly!

I'm taking a serious examinations this year and I don't know how to cope it with my situation like this. My heart won't heal if this situation keep on going. I'm afraid of everything. I'm a big coward girl. I may be laughing all the day long but deep inside my heart.. who knows? Allah knows how I feel. People might think I've been thinking about my own life and everything. But apart of this, don't you know I care about someone so much?! I am always in tears for my own special boyfriend. I cared him so much. I don't want him to repeat the same thing, same mistakes and everything. I don't want him to come to me and say that he regrets again.

I don't want to say how much hurt I've been facing. Everything would just turn into my fault. I just want that someone to know that I really cared about you and loved you so much. I'm sorry.