Imma bad girl.

Why is it so hard for someone to understand me? I know I'm not as perfect as a good granddaughter that you expected. But this is me, you can't change the way I am. I wanna be like, so what? It's my life. I didn't interfere your life but why must you? Is it wrong for me to keep quiet? If I make a lot of noise, you are fvcking irritated with it. Then I wanna go out, also cannot. What is this? At least I still have the intention to get them the foods! And they went back home without telling me?! My heart is fvcking pain and when I got home you are fvcked up with me?!

So today is the New Year Eve and I'm fvcking annoyed with everything, yes everything! You want me to eat those 5 packets right?! Yes, I could but without water k. I'll chocked and die. Your life would be much more easier and you have your greatest granddaughter, which is my sister. You prefer her than me, so just wait for her comeback k?

I'm sorry if I shouted at you. But I swear my heart broke into pieces too! :'( I wish there's someone who could call me up and talk to me nicely when I'm feeling fucked up right now.

To whoever wants to enjoy this fucked up new year eve, get going. I'm living my own life! Take care, suckers!

P/s: I love you, Rauf.