I can't believe that my own friend passed away on Monday morning. I was shocked to know and I don't believe on that. My heart feel something is not right and I keep it to myself. Things doesn't go smoothly that morning. Everyone was crying badly after knowing the news :'( I walked out from the class w/o asking permission. Mr Goh, you should understand our situation. Everyone went to the AVA room to write memory for her. I was crying because it was my granddad's 2 month gone also :(

Mr Muslim told us that she was being hit by a bus. I can't believe it. Cry and cry. So, in the afternoon.. I planned to go to her house and meet her mum. We did. Her house was fulled and I cry again. Her mum is so lovely and sweet. And it reminds me of Rafiqah. Girlfriends talked and I didn't join their conversation. Just sit at the side of the bed and say my prayer. All the ex-seniors came too. Reached home at around 11pm.

Tuesday, wasn't a good day for us too. The teachers didn't choose us for the funeral thing. I was so fed-up and some of the sec 2's get to go! What the? It's not fair. They don't even know her. I mean some of them don't even know her ah. Bloody.. So i skipped my Chemistry class just for Rafiqah :( After 13:15pm, all of us rush to Chua chu kang by cab. Thanks to the driver and we only get to pay 6 bucks. May god bless you, driver :)

I feel like crying when I saw a lot of people under the block. Went to Fatin's crib and have a change. All the yusoffians, ex yusoffians, teachers, friends were all there already. I get to kissed Rafiqah's forehead and it was so cold :( I feel like crying but my heart say don't. Al-fatihah a lot, that's why. All of them were crying and I told them not to. Redha, redha. Such a bad day and I didn't get to sleep well.

Last night, I can't sleep well because sister wake me up at around 2am. Both of us heard someone is crying. I ignore and walk off. Scariest thing ever but I just ignore it.

No one is in the mood to go school, study, smile. I can see that everyone is still sad. Especially Aqeelah :'( Be patience and you know WE love her.

I hope Rafiqah read this. I love you and I miss you.

P/s: I hope she kissed at my forehead back, last night :(