3 days didn't eat proper meals & not enough sleep. Last Saturday, I knew that I'm gonna be sick. But I just ignore it. I'm okay on Sunday morning. Monday night, doesn't make me feel good. Atok fell down at the toilet and we're rushing to Tampines middle of the night. Didn't get to sleep. Whole night over there. Tuesday night, Nenek call ibu and told her to come over again. Go to Tampines around 9pm and go back home around 2am. Atok is very ill that time and all I got to do is just read for him Al-Fatihah.

Wednesday, my body is very hot. I'm having fever as last night I salam Atok when he's having fever. Flu, Sore Throat & Fever. It hurts me a lot. I got no voice right now, seriously. Around 3:30pm, I followed Ayah & Ibu go to Sister's school as she's going off this 6th December. On our way back home, got to know that Atok already passed away :'( I cried inside the car badly w no sound at all. Sister just stare outside the window and her tears rolled down. Ayah was shocked. I stopped crying for awhile, when I reached home. Look myself in the mirror and my face was red.

Go to Tampines again, Sister & Nenek is staying over at Atok's place as my another nenek is all alone by herself. When back home w Ibu & Ayah around 2am. Tiring, i tell you. I'm sick and ya Atok is gone :'( Ayah ask me to wake up around 6:30am and off to Tampines. I get to kiss on his forehead for the last time and ya i can't stop crying. I read for him surah Yaasiin, tears rolled down. Ayah's side came. Auntie Anna & Auntie Fong came. I get to hug my Chinese aunties. Like, at last! They cry so badly, I can't even look at them.

Right now, I'm back from Tampines. I still can't forget what had just happened. Thanks to all who ask me to calm down and be patient. Thanks, love you all. I'm going back to Kampung tonight as tomorrow will be Hari Raya Haji :'( My tears will rolled down, tomorrow morning! I miss Atok, already! I'm going to Muar to meet my Ayah's step sisters. I'll be back on Sunday and after that going off to Tampines meet Nenek Esah. I hope she will be fine. Don't cry okay Nenek? Semue orang sayang arwah Atok.

You guys, take care of yourself alright? Don't get sick, like me right now. Bye bye, readers!

P/S: I didn't know that my father's side is all chinese. This is so cool.

Nenek's last sentence before we go was:- " Kesian Atok, tidur dekat pasir ". :'(