I don't know what happen to me these few days. I'm trying to make myself happy w all the jokes. No matter how much they make me laugh.. I can't make myself happy. It means that I'm wearing mask to school just to make people think that I'm happy. Seriously, yes. No one knows how I feel. I don't even want to share w people because no matter how much stories I tell them, I still feel that I'm suck. Things happened and I can't do anything about it. But please, stop lying because it won't help. Just let it out and speak out the truth. It's all about me and myself. I don't know what happen to me. Share problems w friends? As if, they care.

It's been 2 days and you didn't text me. See, things happen because of me. It's all my fault. Seriously. I advice people not to hate life, not to feel down, sad (etc) but I can't help myself out. Some of them loose one of their friends but I told them to move on. But myself? I can't move on. Leave someone that love you, takes time. Seriously, I need time. A lot, and I mean it. Stop asking me to move on w life because I need time.

Exam papers are out and I told Buddy what happen in school and stuffs. He asked me to take care of myself in school because he's no longer in that school. It's okay Buddy, I'm okay.. I think. My post today doesn't looks like I'm okay. Right? So yeah, I need time to cool myself down and think positive. Think positive, Rabitah. I want to be happy like others too. Everyone has problem w life, friends, their bf/gf, admirer, studies and school but I don't know how they can control it. But most of them can't control it right? So yeah, this is what we call Life. Life sucks, sometimes. I don't want to drag about myself down here because I'm not feeling well. Ah ya, in a sudden.

Xoxo, Rabitah.